It has been quite some time since I last wrote on my blog. At that time, my whole life changed drastically, and I felt like I had become a different person entirely. With new friends and relationships and the loss of important people, I am left navigating the world from a new perspective. One in which the world’s reality is setting in, and I am learning to be grateful for the opportunities I have been granted in this life.

I stopped watching the news and following world events in 2023 because I felt like hate was following me. It was like this dark cloud stalking me and whispering that it would never get better. I lost any hope that I once had for humanity, which was an unfair reaction to the negative targeting that I fell victim to. My world was not “evil”; there were just evil people living at the same time in history as I was. My world was not “good” either; I learned that the good was much quieter than the evil. 2023 was a year of significant changes.

My dad got a liver transplant in 2023, and my Uncle passed away from Cancer a week later. I met my incredible boyfriend and drifted away from friends I once thought would be in my life forever. 2024 brought additional blessings and challenges, I left a toxic work environment, which led to my depression dissipating, and I started a job that I love. I moved in with my boyfriend and got Covid for the first time. I traveled to England, and my car got eaten by rats. I graduated from my graduate program and was denied my license number. My niece was born, and I finished the year mourning my incredible cousin. The world is beautiful and unfair, and it still keeps spinning regardless of your celebrations and sorrows.

2025 has been the year of “mindfulness.” The deletion of Amazon Prime from my life, the elimination of online shopping entirely, and the elimination of sugar and processed fats all show the strengths of accountability and mindfulness that I had once ignored. I learned that if I want to be happier, I need to actually take care of my body and my wallet. I have to limit my frivolous spending and halt my support of companies that exploit other people. The world won’t change because of me, but I will change, which is the only thing I have control over.

I missed following the news because I felt like I was left out of a party everyone else was invited to. I started watching local news exclusively and following smaller creators for entertainment. I began confronting people more when I felt their values negatively impacted their communities and relationships. I implemented the phrase, “Say it with your whole chest,” when someone wanted to insight hate or negativity without consequence. Take accountability for who you are and what you stand for; stop this cowardly bull shit in which you quietly contribute to the evils of the world. If I can change, why can’t you? If I can admit my ignorance, why can’t you?

Needless to say, I went back to therapy. I got my diagnosis of ADHD combined type. I started on medications that finally gave me control over my thoughts and motivations. I sought the help I needed because sometimes it takes a team to improve. I am far from perfect and far from successful, but I am thriving through it all on a personal level that I did not imagine I could. I am in a loving relationship, have incredible friends, love my job, and have a wonderful and supportive family. I am grateful for what I have and who I get to share it with.

So now, I will be posting regularly again because I love writing and sharing my thoughts with the world. I might also try podcasting again; we will see. I am happy, healthy, and ready for the next chapter.